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Three years ago in Chinese New Year Eve, I talk with my grandma about tonight dinner. “Tonight
is so quiet, grandma.” My grandma just laugh for a while. “Yes, they not come
again this year.” Grandma take a deep breath and take a glass of beer. I knew
my grandma very sad since she really hope her oldest son and her second son can
reconciliation their connection between family. Every year, we celebrate
Chinese New Year without one or two families since this conflict happened.
Actually,
the main reason of conflict is very simple, but because their ego between each
other, the problem become bigger and bigger. They never talk each other. Even
they are brother, they such a mortal enemy. My grandma always remind them to
forgive each other. But it seems useless, since this hostility keep happen
until 10 years. My grandma always pray to God for this family reconciliation,
but this prayer seems never get answered from God.
One
shocked day on June 2015, my grandma fall in toilet. She unconscious and be
carried into hospital to get immediate help. Until that moment, all family
member go to hospital to update her condition. Because of her condition get
worse, doctor say that head surgery is urgent to do. But the percentage of success
is just 40%. So we just hope God’s miracle for grandma healthy right now.
Everybody pray and hope my grandma can join with us again in good healthy.
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But
the facts talk different, my grandma comma and never wake up again. At this
time, her oldest and second son, talk each other. They want make my grandma
desire all time come true. They come together to ICU room and forgive each
other in front of grandma. Even I know grandma can’t see this moment, I knew
that she’s very happy. My grandma waiting for this moment so long and she can
get it. But it seems too late to celebrate it.
Ten
hours after that moment, my grandma condition become worse. Doctor say the bad
news that my grandma is passed away even the machine still works. With full
tears and regret, we must take the facts that my grandma is gone. It’s very sad
moment when you wait every single cable from her body is take and her heart
rate is go down until show 0. Yes, my grandma never say goodbye, even in the
last minutes we standing beside her bed and say we are love her so much. She
has left us with smile, since she succeed unite her oldest and second son into
a better relationship.
I
knew that I can’t believe that last week before her gone, she still sit one
table with me and family to celebrate my father and grandpa birthday. There’s
no sign to say goodbye. She still smile and ask our condition as well as she do
everytime we meet. I never expected that I meet again with her this week in
coffin wearing the best dress, but with closed eyes and without breath.
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Sometimes
we forgot that our family, friends, and life partner can leave everytime. We
feel that we can be together forever, but until that day we realized to take
care each other. The biggest regret is when you too late to say “I love you”,
when they still alive. We never want to say goodbye, but we know that her love
is stay alive in our heart. From now until forever.
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